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IchiseGossip
Mediocre Cosplayer~
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Hellos and welcome to my DeviantArt page. I'm horrible at introductions and shit like that, so I'll just jump to what my page is about - or rather my gallery. I like cosplay, media arts, and photography. As well as baking. You'll find a little bit of all of that in here. Yep.. Enjoy.

SEE YOU ALL AT FANIMECON 2014! :D
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Current Residence: My bedroom with my stuffed animals and black cats.
Print preference: Glossy
Favourite genre of music: Musicals/Anything
MP3 player of choice: iPod nano!
Shell of choice: The one down the street? I use it for gas! 8D
Wallpaper of choice: Bright colored, simple patterns.
Skin of choice: Bright colors! xD
Favourite cartoon character: Utena and Anastasia!
Personal Quote: "College is for success. A job is for those who took the opportunity to succeed"
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So..Things aren't going so well...

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 12, 2014, 12:50 AM


Ive been crying the past few days from hearing the news that my grandmother has been discharged from the hospital and sent home because the doctors can't do anything else for her and that her time is coming and the best place to be right now is at home with family.  My father called me to tell me two nights ago about her condition and Ive been scrambling to get my shifts covered at work in order to see her after 5 years before she leaves. My aunt, who used to be a nurse, has been watching over her and she even says she can tell she probably wont last to the end of next week. While I was at work today she had a dementia episode where she tore her breathing machine out of her nose and tossed around her oxygen tanks and basically destroyed the room she was staying in at my aunt's house. She had to call the hospital to have someone come down and administer sedatives to my grandmother to calm her down. The dementia is scaring her which is causing her to act out. Im really scared to see her. Not in fear of what she may do, but whether or not I can handle seeing her. Whether I can hold her and tell her how much I love her without just sobbing. I dont want her to not have seen me after all these years and the last thing she remembers of me [if she remembers me.. Which is also a fear of mine..] is of me being unhappy and crying. My father and aunt are hoping she goes soon because she's suffering right now. She's in pain and frightened and she's tired. They are ready to let her go when she is ready to go. I just want to be there and see her alive before she goes. I feel like that is selfish of me to say... But I want to see my grandmother alive, one last time, before she leaves forever.

My partners are work have been so, so nice and loving and helpful. Especially my shift manager who was trying to help me all night and hugged me before I left work to try and get my shifts covered. I am so thankful to her. I need to buy her flowers or something when I come back. I can't thank her enough for all the hard work and me asking for phone numbers to call around and whatnot nonstop last night.

I have a flight set up to leave Thursday and come back Sunday. I hope thats enough time. Its all I could get off. I feel so, so horrible for not calling her enough, not having a chance to visit enough and now that I get to see her it is in the state she is in.. I really feel like a horrible granddaughter. I really do, but at least I can see her soon. Hopefully.

  • Mood: Hopeless

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Donber 3 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
AHHH~ Your freckles are soooo cute! XD <3
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:iconneko-herrington:
I was going to ask if you lived in San Jose because I noticed that you went to Fanime but in a previous comment you said that you go there every year. I do hope I get to see you there and maybe take a picture with you.
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IchiseGossip Mar 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
That would be awesome! Come find me~
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:iconneko-herrington:
I'll be sure to take a picture with you when I find you.
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:iconabcbadcat:
Your Velma cosplay is fantastic. Can't wait to run into it at Fanime 2014! San Jose native?
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